I was thinking when i drove back just now. Sometimes, i like to drive. Driving makes me think deeply. Driving gives me time to think things i never thought before.
I was sick after Tania came to visit me and Ummi. I knew it was just a normal cold and flu. But with the H1N1 viruses everywhere and flu viruses mutation every millisecond, somehow i thought of me getting the virus. There was a time that i got the flu and fever at the same time that cause some difficulties in movement and all my joints were aching. Then, i started to think ridiculously. What if i really got the flu and movement is really hard? Who will help me? Who will make sure i get healed? Shall i go back KL so that Mr Ang can take care of me? No, i should not, later they will get infected too. Then, how i get heal without people taking care of me? I am all alone here. Who to see? What to do? Bla bla bla... haha, now that i am healthy, when i think back, it was quite hilarious.
Then i thought about the fight that i had with Nong. Shit happened and people fight. In the end i still love her as my sister. If i were to choose my sisters again, i will still choose them. Angry words were said and can’t be taken back but forgiveness is given. I know things change after angry words were spoken, but i am a very hot temper person. I always try to change, i always do. Somehow, it doesn't work. Maybe i will change in the future after i was hit by a really expensive lesson. Or maybe i will wake up one day with my attitude totally changed. Maybe one day i was struck by lightning and got amnesia which cause my hot temper to disappear. Ah, maybe...
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